diff --git a/bin/mktwee b/bin/mktwee index 2286f53..3127e15 100755 --- a/bin/mktwee +++ b/bin/mktwee @@ -37,6 +37,7 @@ def out path, name puts ':: %s' % title text = File.read(path) text.sub!('|next]]') { '|%s]]' % inc(title) } + text.sub!('$version') { `git log --pretty=format:'%as %h' -1` } puts text $index.push title end diff --git a/src/Start.twee b/src/Start.twee index 8daa4d4..5f7a5f9 100644 --- a/src/Start.twee +++ b/src/Start.twee @@ -8,4 +8,6 @@ SPOILERS [[index]] [[source code|https://code.fleshless.org/wtssts/wtssts]] +version: $version + (end of page) diff --git a/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/02.twee b/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/02.twee index eccb32c..c558494 100644 --- a/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/02.twee +++ b/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/02.twee @@ -134,3 +134,146 @@ She fiddles with her phone and suddenly the music starts to play. I know \ world end put a stop to the avalanche of recorded creativity? Em's off, \ and I might as well heed her advice. I take off the catsuit and get \ under the blanket and lay on my stomach and put my arms behind my back. + +Is it a coincidence that I like this album? Does Em like it too or did she +\ choose the music for me? How does she know what I like? This goes beyond +\ reading thoughts, I didn't think about any of this since way back when. +\ This looks so alien I didn't try to analyze it and I still don't even know +\ where to start. Am I sleeping? Am I in simulation? How do I confirm? As far +\ as I remember this is an unfalsifiable theory so this is not a start, this +\ is a stop. + +I try to remember all the facts about me Em shouldn't know but does. Some +\ of them might really be just luck, others are definite. First track ends +\ and another one starts. Oh, so this is not an album, it's a mixtape. Well, +\ I like this one too. I guess she might somehow have been able to get her +\ hands on my online footprint from fourty years ago... How do I know it's +\ really been fourty years? I can't independently verify any presupposition, +\ so it's hard to go on, too many question marks. For all I know I might be +\ an android... wait... gynoid? Anyway, with generated memories... + +This is a scary thought. Maybe I shouldn't go into that, I'm not ready to +\ play the terminator just yet. You know, the thing with the arm. Another +\ track, three for three so far. Let's just relax and listen to the music. +\ Why is it even important to me: the story of this place, of myself, of the +\ world? I'm about to give up an independent existence anyway, shouldn't I +\ be ready to stop thinking for myself? What is it that I'm giving up, +\ exactly? Something I have, but don't use, something that keeps me down +\ instead of providing tools for... yeah, persuit of happiness? I fear that +\ I'm not giving something up, I'm just giving up, and I shouldn't. + +"I will go down with the ship" and all that? "There will be no white flag +\ above my door"? "I'm in love and always will be"? That last one feels out +\ of place. Am I in love with Em? Not really, no. But if I were to be, +\ it's not surrendering, it's the opposite, it's where the enemy is +\ thoroughly routed and we take Manhatten, Berlin, and every other place. +\ What, the enemy? Adult life. Human condition. + +I ponder for a while. Next track, four for four. I don't have a coherent +\ thought now, I'm just laying down on someone else's bed, SOMEWHERE. +\ Then a line from the song hits me hard. "Would you raise your head if it +\ was kept down low?" + +... + +Fucking hell, I can't even be a proper submissive bondage slut as it turns +\ out, because I would. Fuck me, I would. No point prolonging this charade, +\ I turn around, I want to get up and leave. Em is here, standing near the +\ bed, looking at me. Half of my face must have melted down, I don't think +\ I look very pretty at the moment. Her eyes are wide, like "what the fuck +\ is happening", like "what the fuck Mute, what now". I sit up, point to +\ the ceiling and wave my finger in the air. How do you show "listen to the +\ lyrics?" I can't be fucked to get creative, not now. + +I don't think she understood me, but I'll explain later, if I could first +\ put into words my patchwork of feelings. I get out of the bed, pick up my +\ suit and go back into the room where I left my boots, Em follows. + +"Shit, I was hoping to have a dinner with you, I brought food from the +\ canteen." -- she sounds disappointed, maybe I don't need to leave right +\ this second? She hands me my phone. I take it and turn it on again. + +> Sorry Em, I'm a mess, you didn't do anything wrong. Give me a minute to +> put myself together and let's have a dinner, sure. + +"You look ready to leave, I don't want to keep you here if you don't want +\ to be here." + +> It's a natural reaction for me to run away in any situation. You +> shouldn't enable my unproductive behaviour. + +She looks at me, uncertain. + +"If you want to tell me what the situation is, I want to listen. Sit down +\ on the couch, I'll be your proper host... -ess... today." + +The couch is comfortable. What do I tell her? I start typing, hoping it +\ will somehow make sense in the end. + +> I can see myself from an outside point of view, and all I do since I +> woke up is freaking out at everything, being hysterical and unreasonable +> and conflicted and impulsive and a pain in the ass for everybody. And +> I want to stop being that, but it doesn't stop, and I don't like it, +> but I keep trying and not getting better. The situation is I'm freaking +> out again. You are correct, I'm not ready, not for what I ask, not for +> anything else. The song made me remember that despite all my erotic +> fantasies I will always defy authority, no gods no masters, and it's a +> difficult circle to square. It's also hard for me to ignore that this +> world is not what I'm used to. I see no place for myself here and that +> keeps me on edge all the time. Secrets don't help at all, nothing makes +> sense, and I thought I can just let it all go, be a pony again, but... +> I don't suppose you have a brainwashing machine and a will to use it. + +The food is served, Em sits on a chair across the table and reads my +\ ramblings. I guess I'll take a bite or two, why not. Do I...? + +> Can we maybe get, like, drunk or anything? + +"Aw, how cute! We can, but not right away. I'll get back to you on that." + +She puts her phone down and sits in silence, thinking. Then she starts +\ to eat, still thinking. If she knows me as much as I imagine she does, +\ none of this should come as a surprise, how I am now is how I always +\ have been, so it's interesting what's it she's thinking about. Would +\ she be disappointed that I'm not going to be her thing or would she be +\ relieved, or maybe it's something else entirely? + +"I'm not brainwashing you even if I could, like why would I do that? +\ Instead I can offer you two things. First is a job." + +That's unexpected, I'm listening. + +"It doesn't look like much, but it's a proper job someone has to do. +\ I could play it up... but I don't want to. We need someone to man the +\ bunker again, now that Old Man isn't in there. Keep it tidy, keep it +\ occupied, keep the needle in the green, don't go too far into the +\ woods, simple. No salary, but a place to live and basic necessities +\ covered. You'll have food and fuel supply, no need for survival shit." + +It... actually sounds cool. I nod. Em is thinking again, I guess about +\ the second thing. + +... + +"The second thing is this. I accept your friendship gift at face value, +\ as just a friendship gift. I'll have to be direct now, no way around +\ it. Lace yourself up, don't touch yourself, don't come without me. +\ I'll be visiting from time to time, be patient. Our friendship will +\ be unique, but we are also unique, so it's fitting. I have to remind +\ you that none of this is an order." + +Also unexpected, and slightly hot. I nod again. She produces the black +\ ribbon from her pocket, the one I gave her, and places it in front of +\ me. I pick it up. + +"You may start whenever you like, I'll send you all the info later. Oh, +\ and take the stairs when you go up, and close that door behind you." + +Is it my cue to leave? Do I want to stay? I don't know what I want, +\ really, at least choosing from available options. Does Em want me to +\ leave? I can't tell. If I ask, she'll probably tell me again that +\ this is my decision. Eh, whatever, it's not a big deal... + +[[I think I'll go.|next]] + +(end of page) diff --git a/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/03.twee b/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/03.twee new file mode 100644 index 0000000..c8de213 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/03.twee @@ -0,0 +1,81 @@ +Today marks two weeks, two weeks I hadn't come. I shouldn't have started with +\ this, but I'm so horny it's hard to think about anything else. Usually what +\ happens is I start daydreaming, get aroused and then try to find something +\ to do to get my mind off my laced pussy -- FUCK WHY DID I THINK THAT -- or +\ maybe something that would beat the devil out it, so to say. I hadn't come +\ for more than two weeks, what I meant is I've been living in the bunker for +\ two weeks now, so it's two weeks since Em told me not to come without her, +\ and it's been rough. What I'd do now is go to the cold room, because that +\ helps, and solve some math problems, because that helps too. Oh, before +\ that maybe I should wash my suit and boots once again, not because they are +\ dirty, but because I need something to do. + +After I've climbed the stairs, and that wasn't easy... How the hell had Em +\ managed to do it with her wound is beyond me, she must be much more tough +\ than I've given her credit before. Was she deployed on some missions or did +\ she go through training just because, just in case? If she was, I'd like her +\ to tell me some real stories from her past, I'm guessing there's a good +\ chance for crazy Hollywood-style action somewhere in there, it would be +\ something interesting to listen to. + +Anyway, after I've climbed the stairs and closed that door behind me, Em sent +\ me some docs that described what needs to be done. First thing next morning +\ I've took inventory, or rather started taking inventory of all the things +\ in the bunker -- storage, the rooms, equipment, machinery, everything. It +\ took some time to complete, meanwhile I was also busy making friends with +\ the stove. As it turns out, the bunker has central heating with a boiler +\ and water pipes going into every room, and every room's pipe has a valve to +\ it, and none of them were marked, so I had to do that too. I mean I would +\ close the valves and open them one by one and then go find the room that +\ would get warmer some time afterwards. I'd also work the generator to keep +\ the batteries charged. + +After the inventory was complete I've checked it against the spreadsheet that +\ lists all the things the bunker should have and sent back an order for all +\ the things missing. Next morning there was a box near the secret door and a +\ guy near the box. We've saluted one another and he left. I've spent the day +\ filling the storage and the lockers, and putting into the box all the extra +\ things the sheet didn't mention. I was sad to part with the harness and the +\ gag and the dildo and the plug, but what can you do, eh. Maybe we'll meet +\ again friends, I'll miss you for sure. Next morning the same guy took the +\ box back into the complex. + +Not much to do for entertainment here. I've been going out for a walk and +\ some branchsitting, which sounds like much more fun than it is. What I was +\ trying to joke about is it sounds like some herbisexual practice... Okay, +\ I'll stop now. For food I've been using the same supplies from the storage +\ meaning tins and more tins. I don't really mind, but this is a survival +\ diet, would be nice to have more... I don't know, vitamins and shit? Or do +\ they include all you need in there now? I'll ask later I guess. I see what +\ Em meant when she said she could play it up, or at least I think I do. It +\ would be very easy to imagine this as some kind of prison, if not for the +\ unlocked hatch. I'm free to go, but there's nowhere to go, so I stay here. + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +