Well, it went exactly as awkward as you might imagine. He ended up chewing meat
\ and mushrooms and pushing the paste through the holes in my gag and then
\ I drank soup from a bowl. I guess he was uncomfortable but decided to think
\ of it as a medical procedure. Like, it needs to be done, no point having
\ strong emotions. One way or the other, this pony is now well-fed, moving on.

"I feel really out of place mentioning it, but what do we do about...
\ you know..." -- indeed, THAT.

E N E M A

"Oh. Let me take a look, I might have one."

At least I can breathe on my own. Why do I have to be such a pain in the ass,
\ requiring so much care just to exist. It is me who should be taking care
\ of him, not the other way around.

He's back with a suitable piece of equipment -- a bag and a hose. We had
\ a similar one back home.

"So, let's see here. Warm water, how much? Full?" -- yeah, it looks about right.

"Let the air out, then what?"

I L A Y D O W N . R E M O V E C A P F R O M P L U G . I N S E R T H O S E .
\ W A T E R G O E S I N . R E M O V E H O S E . P U T C A P B A C K .
\ I S I T O V E R H O L E . R E M O V E C A P . S T U F F G O E S O U T .
\ P U T C A P B A C K . O V E R .

That took time and energy, I seriously need to practice.

And so the water went in and "stuff" went out. I don't know, it didn't seem
\ appropriate to write S H I T in front of him. It just didn't, all right?

Afterwards he put a coat on me, long just enough to cover the naughty parts,
\ and now we're back in the bedroom, and it feels warmer.

"Man, why would someone do that to you. Like I understand the gag and the...
\ But why THAT? Shame you don't remember."

Uuuuuh-huuuuuh, you know what, I don't. Not a bit, complete darkness.
\ I can't be fucked to explain everything, let's just say it's a mystery.

...

I sigh.

...

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I sigh again. I owe this man the truth. [[And didn't I say I need practice.|next]]

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