Not much to do once you are ready. You can't really chat with the guys, but you
\ can try to accomodate further requests. You can walk around the room...
\ and not much else. Strike poses?

Now, what I've learned about my audience is the thing they like best is for me
\ to enjoy myself, which I won't complain about. And what do I enjoy? Like,
\ in professional context? Well, this. I enjoy being tightly bound, I enjoy
\ feeling helpless, I enjoy being watched by people who like it when I like it,
\ and I like it that they like it. I even enjoy drinking yoghurt from a bucket,
\ given some amount of arousal of course. And I have this amount by now, with
\ a lot to spare even. I also enjoy my studio, the orange autumn evening behind
\ the window, the fact that I can be lazy as all hell, no real responsibilities,
\ no reason to hurry anywhere. I can just do whatever, mostly thinking about
\ stuff, dreaming, fantasizing. What, future? Social security? Dental? Taxes?
\ Fuck all this shit. I'm a pony, ponies don't pay taxes yet, I hope.

I lay down on the floor and get comfortable. Nothing much is required from me,
\ I don't need to imitate pleasure, it's gonna come on its own, I'll just be
\ here for some time, that's my job, that's all there is to it. Usually I just
\ drift off to my own fantasy land, but today I was doing something, and it
\ wants my attention. I was typing the first characters of a... text? I don't
\ want to call it a book or a novel or... I'm not sure what form it's gonna take
\ yet, but it will require text, so. Anyway, it was cooking for some time in me,
\ and something's coming, and I want to capture it and see where it's gonna go.

I want to call it "Boredom", and the basic gist is... maybe "Boredom Simulator",
\ if it's gonna turn interactive somehow down the line? It wants me to try and
\ experiment with something art does quite rarely, at least art that I know of,
\ and that's -- how to put it? -- avoiding unlikely events, maybe, and doing
\ away with anything interesting, on purpose. It's set itself in my head like
\ this: you are a deep space miner on an asteroid, and you have jack shit to do,
\ besides maybe taking care of the mining machines once in a blue moon. Get it?
\ Moon? Anyway. The challenge is to still make it somehow appealing to at least
\ a niche audience. I have to like it myself at least, and if there is indeed
\ nothing going on, well, I don't see how I can achieve that.

Maybe something does happen after all? Or I could focus on the person's thoughts
\ instead of events? But that would not be conducive to the experiment, because
\ I'm sure that was done many many times already. Constant busywork would also
\ defeat the purpose, however boring it may be. No, the idea is there is nothing
\ to do, and yet you don't stop reading. Maybe you continue reading because you
\ expect something to happen, because something surely must happen, because why
\ would anyone create art where nothing happens? Then if nothing happens, that
\ would count as a subversion of a reader's expectation, which makes the piece
\ postmodern, but leaves the reader very disappointed.

Maybe nothing happens for a long time, then something does happen and it's
\ a plot twist and then something happens again and again and we're now in
\ an interesting part of the text? That would work, but it feels cheap. I'll
\ leave it as plan B, if I'm unable to do it properly.

...

...

...

Oh sorry, I was thinking. Some ideas float around, but nothing jumps at me as an
\ obvious way forward. I need a break, let's think about something else. I mean
\ here I am, participating in adult entertainment, maybe I should take a look at
\ myself through the eyes of my imaginary listeners? Where to start? I know, my
\ favourite topic is the long list of my complaints. Not towards anybody in
\ particular, just in general. How it sucks to be me, you know.

The slight problem with being me is the whole lot, but the relevant one is,
\ I guess, no audio. No moans, no... No, that's it, no moans. I mean sure, there
\ are some sounds: sucking on a gag, horseshoe clacking, chain rustling, I don't
\ know, excited breathing. But still, no moans. People like moans.

That was part of a justification for a large TV hanging on a wall with some
\ copyright-free porn on it all the time. The other part is it's quirky, adds to
\ a unique setting. The other other part is maybe I really like my job sometimes,
\ all right?

And there I was, laying on the floor, liking my job, when [[the power went out.|next]]

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