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I'm very nervous. All of them more or less have an idea of my character by now,
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\ but I wouldn't expect them to just nod at what I have to tell them sooner
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\ or later. I look at Em.
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"I'm not talking." -- she's sitting on a bed, keeping a poker face.
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The rest of us just sit on the floor, because I was loo lazy to organize
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\ any of this properly. I don't think it matters that much, floor is fine.
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\ Before me are Old Man, Bunny and Foxy, and there is no one else who can have
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\ an informed-- well, -ish opinion whether I've finally gotten off my rocker
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\ or not. I'm hesitant, I'm still not sure I'll be able to do it.
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"Alright, I'll set the stage." -- Em looks bored already -- "Mute is going
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\ to ask me of something unusual. The three of you need to understand the request
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\ and approve of it before I'll do the same, because I need a second opinion.
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\ Go on." -- and the puck is with me again.
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I sigh. Then I sigh again.
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> I want agent Mistress to become my
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I can't. This is what I want, but how can I tell them? Pulling the trigger was so,
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\ so much more easy than this. I type the word and press the button and close my eyes.
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"I want agent Mistress to become my owner."
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There, no turning back now. I'm off the map, I've never been to such a place before.
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\ I look at them, no real surprise on their faces somehow. The jury is silent
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\ for a while, then Old Man speaks with calm.
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"You don't mean in legal sense, do you? It's just a roleplay like we did back
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\ in the bunker, right?"
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"Not exactly like that, deeper. I want this roleplay to be as real as it can be.
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\ I don't want to feel that I can stop this at will. I want to feel owned,
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\ if it makes sense. If there is a way to make it legal I want to do it too."
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"Man, I can't approve of that." -- yeah, I didn't expect him to. I did wish him to,
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\ but that would be a miracle -- "You are a person Mute, you should stay a person.
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\ A free person."
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I went all in and I lost, there's nothing more for me to add I guess. What did
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\ I say about no turning back? Yes I can, watch me. I turn around and hug my knees.
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\ I want them to leave now.
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"We don't know you very well, mam," -- judging by the sound direction
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\ it's Bunny. -- "but we know Em, to some extent. She can be... really into it..."
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~~"I approve."~~
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What? Foxy? How? If they are not suprised, I definitely am.
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"Please hear me out, I have good reasons."
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I can hear her getting up and moving towards me. She stands behind me, between me and them.
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"Miss Classified obviously can't talk. I mean besides her being mute, she can't find
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\ the strength to defend her position. I think I understand what's going on here
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\ so I'll talk on her behalf. If I get anything wrong, please correct me, mam."
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I nod. Agent Foxy, I did not expect this from you.
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"The three of us are here because this is the closest she can get to a family.
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\ Sir, you are clearly a father figure, me and Bunny she considers sisters,
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\ not exactly, but to some degree. Just a moment ago she came out before us,
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\ confessing something extremely intimate, looking for our approval, literally.
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\ To turn her down would be devastating to her, maybe life-changing, maybe even
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\ life-destroying. This is really as grave as I make it sound, it's no joking matter.
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\ We have to be supportive of her personality, like her life depends on it."
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This is not a good reason, agent. You can't do it because you fear for my life, come on.
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"This is not a good enough reason by itself, but please listen on. I assume
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\ your argument against is a principled one, like slavery is unacceptable, period.
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\ This is completely understandable and hard to argue against, but I will try anyway."
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She's silent for a moment, others too.
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"I did not consider that assignment done. I thought long and hard, I had to really reflect
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\ like never before and I understood a couple of things. This is not a surprise for me,
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\ I anticipated this situation, that's why I'm not improvising here, I had my decision ready.
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\ So, the things. First, miss Classified will never be happy alone, she needs a partner,
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\ and not just any partner. Second, my most basic principle is to do good by people.
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\ What's bad about slavery is that it's done without consent, and at the same time
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\ is miss Classified really free now if she can't give her consent for the only thing
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\ that she's certain will make her happy? Who are we really to say no? On what grounds?
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\ Is it her life or not? Of course if she was forced or coerced or otherwise pushed
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\ that would be a different conversation, but we do indeed know Em to some extent,
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\ and I don't believe that she'd do any of that."
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Yeah, are you free to give your freedom away, a classic paradox.
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"If I deny miss Classified's wish, what can I offer her instead? A life of anti-depressants?
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\ A hope that it's a phase that will pass? Myself as her owner instead of Em? None of this
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\ is fair trade. Finally, I have one more thing to talk about, Em herself. Like you've said
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\ Bunny, she can be really into it, but I don't think it's something bad. She takes these
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\ things absolutely seriously, she'd sooner chew her leg off than allow anything bad to happen
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\ to those who gave her permission to decide for them. She won't stand for a minute
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\ for any breach of the imaginary contract, like you give me your freedom, and I give you
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\ whatever it is that makes you happy. And now I come to the most important part. I think
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\ Em is not ready to accept miss Classified's offer for whatever reasons, but being
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\ a little coward that she is and we all like, she wants to avoid the heavy burden
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\ of rejecting you, mam. She wants us to frame for her own faults and I personally
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\ do not appreciate it, fuck you Em."
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I hear Foxy returning to her place and sitting back down.
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"Well fuck you right back." -- Em gets up from the bed and walks towards me -- "I have
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\ nothing to say for myself, you are spot on. Don't bother, I don't need your approval
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\ anymore." -- she stops near me -- "I'm sorry, Mute. It's not that I'm not ready,
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\ it's that you're not ready yet, but I really did want to avoid having to tell you this."
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You know what sucks? Being given hope only for it to crumble in your hands.
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\ Oooh I'm gonna be very miserable very soon. Please leave. All of you.
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"You'll have to prove to me that you are ready and then I won't need any second,
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\ third or fourth opinions. Until then I have plans to keep you entertained,
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\ I won't just leave you here alone, come on."
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I uh...
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"And by come on I mean come on, let's go. You live with me now. You want legal?
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\ I can make it legal, soon-to-be-private. Up, up, up."
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I get up.
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"I was worried about you, Foxy." -- Em turns to her -- "It's good to see you're back
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\ in shape, I won't be this sloppy next time I need to fool you. Take care guys,
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\ make sure to visit often."
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[[I follow Em outside.|next]]
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