wtssts/src/mute/copy/complex/mistress/03.twee

Today marks two weeks, two weeks I hadn't come. I shouldn't have started with
\ this, but I'm so horny it's hard to think about anything else. Usually what
\ happens is I start daydreaming, get aroused and then try to find something
\ to do to get my mind off my laced pussy -- FUCK WHY DID I THINK THAT -- or
\ maybe something that would beat the devil out it, so to say. I hadn't come
\ for more than two weeks, what I meant is I've been living in the bunker for
\ two weeks now, so it's two weeks since Em told me not to come without her,
\ and it's been rough. What I'd do now is go to the cold room, because that
\ helps, and solve some math problems, because that helps too. Oh, before
\ that maybe I should wash my suit and boots once again, not because they are
\ dirty, but because I need something to do.

After I've climbed the stairs, and that wasn't easy... How the hell had Em
\ managed to do it with her wound is beyond me, she must be much more tough
\ than I've given her credit before. Was she deployed on some missions or did
\ she go through training just because, just in case? If she was, I'd like her
\ to tell me some real stories from her past, I'm guessing there's a good
\ chance for crazy Hollywood-style action somewhere in there, it would be
\ something interesting to listen to.

Anyway, after I've climbed the stairs and closed that door behind me, Em sent
\ me some docs that described what needs to be done. First thing next morning
\ I've took inventory, or rather started taking inventory of all the things
\ in the bunker -- storage, the rooms, equipment, machinery, everything. It
\ took some time to complete, meanwhile I was also busy making friends with
\ the stove. As it turns out, the bunker has central heating with a boiler
\ and water pipes going into every room, and every room's pipe has a valve to
\ it, and none of them were marked, so I had to do that too. I mean I would
\ close the valves and open them one by one and then go find the room that
\ would get warmer some time afterwards. I'd also work the generator to keep
\ the batteries charged.

After the inventory was complete I've checked it against the spreadsheet that
\ lists all the things the bunker should have and sent back an order for all
\ the things missing. Next morning there was a box near the secret door and a
\ guy near the box. We've saluted one another and he left. I've spent the day
\ filling the storage and the lockers, and putting into the box all the extra
\ things the sheet didn't mention. I was sad to part with the harness and the
\ gag and the dildo and the plug, but what can you do, eh. Maybe we'll meet
\ again friends, I'll miss you for sure. Next morning the same guy took the
\ box back into the complex.

Not much to do for entertainment here. I've been going out for a walk and
\ some branchsitting, which sounds like much more fun than it is. What I was
\ trying to joke about is it sounds like some herbisexual practice... Okay,
\ I'll stop now. For food I've been using the same supplies from the storage
\ meaning tins and more tins. I don't really mind, but this is a survival
\ diet, would be nice to have more... I don't know, vitamins and shit? Or do
\ they include all you need in there now? I'll ask later I guess. I see what
\ Em meant when she said she could play it up, or at least I think I do. It
\ would be very easy to imagine this as some kind of prison, if not for the
\ unlocked hatch. I'm free to go, but there's nowhere to go, so I stay here.

So, anyway, I'm horny and as usual I both like it and I don't. It's a complex
\ feeling on several levels that goes something like this. On an immediate
\ level it's frustrating that I want to come, and I can do it very easily, but
\ I voluntarily don't do it. On another level there's an implicit promise that
\ when I finally do come, it's gonna be so much more awesome than just your
\ normal pedestrian quickie, that it's worth the wait. On yet another level
\ it feels like an accomplishment on my part. It's like I expect Em to tell
\ me she's proud of me, and I would accept her praise because I'd feel that
\ myself, like I did something great, something not everyone can do, and
\ something that's useful and meaningful, or something. I admit it's stupid,
\ but that's how I feel.

But it's hard, I tell you. It's like you're hungry, and here is a fresh
\ and delicious slice of pie right out of the stove, and you're free to eat
\ it, but you don't. Oh shit, is this how people on a diet feel? OH SHIT!
\ Guys, I'm so sorry for everyone of you! I so want to hug you all right now
\ and tell you I love you and that you should be extremely proud of yourself
\ and that I won't judge you for one second if the temptation proves to be
\ too great for you, because it's fucking torture! It's bad enough to be
\ hungry because there's objectively nothing to eat, it's even worse to be
\ hungry because you do it to yourself! Should I start eating less? Will it
\ help? Would hunger beat arousal? Would it be better or worse?

Anyway, it was so bad a couple of times that I was ready to give up, and it
\ took a small miracle for me to snap out, and yesterday I finally broke
\ radio silence and wrote Em to come to me and do something about it, because
\ I'm sure I won't be able to hold out much longer. She's acknowledged, but
\ that was it, no pep talk, no timeframe. Oh, something's coming. I'm
\ a colonel again, on a frontline, in trenches, holding out against
\ an enemy onslaught, my -- what -- company? division? whatever, taking
\ constant casualties and attrition, and finally there's a line to HQ and
\ I plead for support -- reinforcements, artillery, air, low orbit ion cannon,
\ whatever's available, JUST FUCKING HELP ME BEFORE THEY COME AND KILL US ALL!
\ And HQ told me "roger that", and the line is dead again, and all I can
\ do now is wait and hope for another small miracle, or just accept fate and
\ brace for impact... I really do overreact to the most trivial shit, don't I?

Well, it's not trivial for me. I know I can just lay down in my bed and...
\ FUCKING HELL MUTE STOP THINKING, NOW! The suit is done, let's wash the boots.
\ Let's take one boot and dip the cloth into water and... And by the way, let's
\ do a bit of a bucket challenge maybe. Ooooh it's gonna be bad, it's gonna be
\ so bad, I won't like it, at all. The water is seriously cold, and the room is
\ cold because I made it cold, because I wanted to have a cold room so I closed
\ its valve, exactly because I wanted a place that's cold so I can freeze
\ myself in hopes it would help beat arousal, and it does, but at what cost...

I hear something, it must be the door opening. Do I go out naked like this? On
\ the one hand, I don't want to be weird, I'm just a... janitor? Well, a bunker
\ keeper, why would I be naked in front of a delivery man? Okay, there are no
\ other hands here, it's gonna take a minute, but I'll get myself into my suit.

"Mute, it's me."

Get your tail ready, the enemy, you'll need it to put between your legs soon.

"I like how you look. So, what do you want me to do?"

That's a question I need to think about. A straight up request to fuck would
\ be the most honest answer, but since she's here maybe we play? How to say it
\ though, I have one chance to tell her my wish.

> I want you to make me feel good and help with keeping my hands off myself.

She nods and presents the palm of her hand in front of me. I give her my phone,
\ she takes it and puts it into her pocket.

"Take this box to the bedroom." -- I do, she follows. -- "Sit on the bed."

She opens the box and rummages through it, then finally takes a straitjacket
\ out and looks at me. I take the cue and put my arms forward. If I was horny
\ before, now I'm completely wet, this must be my reward for being a good girl
\ for Em, she's going to bind me tight and then... AND THEN!!! Ooooooh I'm
\ shaking a little, I can't wait, but fortunately soon it won't be up to me,
\ and that's exactly how I like it, how I want it, now and forevermore.

She takes her time putting it on, getting all the slack out with laces, then
\ tightening the straps, then buckling the sleeves, then adjusting the crotch
\ straps, then the front strap, and it even has a belt that goes around upper
\ arms for that extra sense of helplessness that I like so much. When she's
\ finished my arms are welded shut to my torso, there's no play, which is
\ ironic. Get it? Because I wanted to play? Whatever. She looks satisfied.

"Well, someone is desperate, let's see how desperate. I have an ointment here
\ that has some special properties. Our biochemists were looking for an easy
\ way to deal with body hair, and they came up with this, and it works. I mean
\ it completely destroys every last hair off your body and they don't ever grow
\ again, which is good news, if it's something you want. Unfortunately as you
\ may guess there are bad news too. There are some side effects. First, your
\ head goes shiny just as well as everything else, say goodbye to your brows,
\ your eyelashes, whatever else have you. More importantly, you lose control
\ of your bladder, your colon, your jaw, your tongue and your voice chords.
\ That last part won't scare you in particular would be my impression, but
\ imagine yourself bald, unable to control your piss or your shit, with your
\ tongue always hanging down from your always wide open mouth and tell me do
\ you want me to go ahead and rub it all over you. These effects are permanent
\ and there is no known way to reverse any of it."

I see where she's coming from. No normal person would agree, right? I wouldn't
\ agree any more than you would, under normal conditions, but I do imagine
\ myself like she's described and... IT'S SO HOT, it's so unbelievably hot that
\ I nod right away, several times. When I'm wet, I tend to act differently.
\ I'm ready to admit it, but I can't really do anything about it, I guess.
\ Permanent effects don't scare me -- when I'm wet -- quite the opposite, they
\ make me even more wet. I want you to never set me free again, Mistress.

"Noted. Let's continue."

She finds a large ball gag in her box of joy and fits it into my mouth. Then
\ she takes it out to my disappointment, but I rejoice as she replaces it with
\ a ring gag, also just the right size to keep my mouth open as wide as it can
\ be without actually hurting. She locks the gag and dives into the magic box
\ again. Next up is an anal hook. Beginner users might find it large, but in my
\ book it's actually a rather standard size, not a novelty toy that looks kinky,
\ but a tool to -- well, hook your ass and tie it to something, hopefully for a
\ long time, in my case. This does look promising, anal hook is not something
\ you see every day. It's not like hardcore or anything, but it's -- as I've
\ said -- promising.

"Don't worry, everything here is clean."

She licks the hook, then puts it inside my mouth and gently moves it around to
\ collect the saliva. It's a solid metal thing, so once the tip is inside, it
\ should go down, or maybe up, no problem. She takes it out and gestures me.
\ I stand up and turn around. The hook goes in without much to tell you about,
\ this is not my first time, and hopefully not the last. Oh, it's cold, but it
\ should warm up nicely in no time. She sits me back down, so I don't have to
\ hold it, which is good, there's nothing to hold on to, and it's heavy, so it
\ would probably be impossible for me to keep it in my ass just, hm, clutching
\ it with my rosebud, so to say. Anyway, it has nowhere to fall now that I'm
\ sitting on it. She takes a string and threads it through the ring, I guess,
\ I can't really see behind my back, but what else is there to do for her.

Then she pushes me so I lay down on the bed and it takes some time for me to
\ squirm around under her guidance so that I lay in the center. She puts cuffs
\ around my ankles and ties them to the bed, then she ties the jacket, then
\ she puts another set of cuffs just under my knees and ties them too, and
\ finally she ties the hook to the bed, tightnening the string under my body.
\ Each action gets me more and more wet, now I lay down completely unable to
\ move, maybe except for my neck or feet, and I'm ready to burst, and all I can
\ think about is how much I want to come, but I also want to stay like this
\ until the end of time, it's the anticipation that feels maybe even better
\ than the actual thing. My legs are spread wide for her, please take care of
\ this pussy of mine that is also yours, that wants something to be done about
\ it so, so much.

She holds my head up and tucks a pillow under it, and it makes it difficult to
\ turn my head around, so I look up, not really seeing anything, I might as
\ well just close my eyes, or maybe she has a blindfold in that box, or maybe
\ even a strict hood, and maybe there's gonna be some breathplay or maybe she's
\ gonna have me choking on a huge strap-on, and you know what, maybe she'll
\ put a massive steel collar on me, very tight, so it presses on my throat and
\ I feel it every second, and she'll rivet it together and then weld it over
\ the rivets and it never goes away, and she chains me to this bed, and I
\ never stand up again, and she'll fuck me many times, and she'll make me
\ a public utility for everyone to fuck all the time, and I'll always be as wet
\ as I am now, and it's going to be heaven on earth, and people will sit on my
\ face and I'll pass out from lack of oxygen, but then wake up again, being
\ fucked in every hole at the same time, covered in all sorts of liquids...
\ Not something you normally wish for, I know.

"Meh, I'd prefer you in a different setup for this, but what we have is what we
\ have, and it will have to do."

I hope what's coming next is not just a vibrator to my clit, I'll just come
\ immediately and I fear that would be the end, and I don't want it to end, not
\ with me instantly coming, after all the work she's put into fixing me up like
\ this. Please, play with me more, play with me for hours, make me go insane
\ with raw, pure lust, make me fucking scream -- that would be awesome indeed.
\ She runs a finger up my legs, and it feels like I'm being zapped with a
\ cattle prod -- maybe, I've never been, actually. It's an intense feeling is
\ what I am trying to say, okay?

"Let's do an unboxing."

I can almost hear a chuckle, and I concur. The ribbon is being pulled and it's
\ an intense feeling as well. My feet dance around.

"Yeah, I may be able to do something about it."