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@@ -240,7 +240,7 @@ Will she put me into ballet boots now? That would be so cool, it would feel even
 Maybe she's also ready to end the beginning, and doesn't want to waste time
 \ and effort to honestly marginal benefit, or maybe she doesn't have the gear or
 \ maybe it's part of the course to tease me and then back off a bit to later
-\ tease me even more, I don't know yet, and the reason don't matter anyway,
+\ tease me even more, I don't know yet, and the reason doesn't matter anyway,
 \ it would be cool, but it's already very very cool. Thank you, Mistress.
 
 "Now, this may hurt a bit, but I'll try to be careful."

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+Why is she doing it? Obviously she won't just take one out and leave the others,
+\ right? Like why would you do it? She's taking them all out, why? I like them,
+\ I want them there, this is unfair, I didn't ask for this, I didn't allow this,
+\ Stop, stop, STOP! Put them back and get your hands off of me! I want 28 back,
+\ she wouldn't do this, she would keep her promise, I know she would...
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+"Something's wrong here. Like it might hurt a bit, but it shouldn't..."
+
+At fucking last! She stops undoing the flarings, with pliers I guess, and sits
+\ silent, maybe thinking about something. Then she gets off the bed and walks
+\ towards my head and looks me in the eyes.
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+"Do you think I don't remember what I've sworn to you?"
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+Well maybe you did forget, but now it came back.
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+"Answer me."
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+How else should I interpret what's happening? You told me you won't take them
+\ out, but now you are taking them out, I mean what do you want me to say?
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+"ANSWER ME!"
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+She looks... scary, I nod instinctively. She takes a few steps back, I continue
+\ watching the low ceiling. She keeps silent for a few seconds, then starts
+\ talking, in low voice that doesn't imply anything good.
+
+"This is unacceptable. To think that I would break a promise, no, an oath, just
+\ like that, gratuitously, willy-nilly, me, an agent, would be bad enough. But
+\ to think that I would under any circumstances break an oath TO YOU! TO YOU!!!
+\ WHO DO YOU THINK I AM, MUTE?! Obviously you think I am some sort of an..."
+
+She stops and abandons the sentence, but I get the gist. I don't think you're
+\ any sort of anything, but what do you want me to do with the facts, huh?
+\ Again, you did what you told me you wouldn't do, and now you're what, blaming
+\ me that I dared to think of it as what it clearly is?
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+"I want to hit something. I feel hurt. By you. Unjustly."
+
+How is this unjust to you? What the fuck, lady?
+
+"You are correct in the most banal, technical, uninteresting sense. This cheap
+\ shit will be completely rusted in a year, and even now it looks like cheap
+\ shit, and it's supposed to be a part of me inside of you, isn't it? I wanted
+\ to replace it with something much better, but maybe you are right after all.
+\ Maybe you do want your cunt decorated with rusty blobs, in memory of someone
+\ who only ever existed in your own fantasy world. This is gonna hurt again."
+
+I feel like what's happening has significance, I may have to give it some
+\ thought later. Em mounts the bed again and puts the eyelet back, and it does
+\ hurt, but not catastrophically, and not for long. She fiddles with the pliers
+\ again to restore the flarings, and it honestly doesn't hurt all that much,
+\ for all her angry talk I'm sure she is being careful still. So... What now?
+\ I don't want to play anymore, I want to be alone again. I guess in some ways
+\ I do have my wish granted, don't I? She made me feel very good, and now I
+\ have zero interest in masturbation, all that without actually having an
+\ orgasm that I was sure is coming and that I was looking forward to, so much.
+
+"I'll be back."
+
+She goes out with me still bound to the bed, and I'd really prefer not to be.
+\ There are two Mutes, one is horny and the other is not, and they are very
+\ different in many ways, and I was the one and now I'm the other, and I feel
+\ uncomfortable and silly and vulnerable, and it doesn't feel good. And what
+\ am I supposed to do with this? Am I still considering becoming Em's object?
+\ Do I hope to be the first Mute all the time, like ALL THE TIME? What happens
+\ if I become the second Mute, still being bound by decisions made by the first
+\ Mute? Like I wake up one day like this and what do I think, what do I do?
+\ And what would make the second Mute happy? NOTHING? Being alive is hard work,
+\ unforgiving and unrewarding, and by the way, that's me having it easy.
+\ I haven't yet met one person who'd try to take advantage of me or force me
+\ into anything I wouldn't like, everyone is very kind and supportive, and I
+\ still can't find my place in life, can't even...
+
+"I apologize. I admit there's my share of being at fault here. I realize I
+\ sometimes behave over the top, irrational and... unconstructive. Having said
+\ that, I still want to punish you."
+
+Punish me? What for? Em is going though the box again, is she looking for like
+\ a flogger or something? In order to be in the mood again I first need to stop
+\ focusing on how bad I feel at the moment, and it's gonna take some time. I
+\ mean, sure, go ahead if you want to, I'm just not going to enjoy this, if you
+\ find it important for some reason, and I won't correct my behaviour, because
+\ I have no idea what is it that I did wrong. I'm just going to be even more
+\ miserable, whatever.
+
+She's lacing me up again, then she unties my legs and the jacket and the hook
+\ from the bed, and pulls me up so I sit, and then gestures me to stand up.
+\ I do. I don't really care. A stream of saliva is running down my chest,
+\ someone might find it attractive. She rotates her finger in the air and I
+\ turn around. She gets behind me and takes the hook out. Eh.
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