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438 lines
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What I'm gonna do is something I wasn't aware I'm capable of. It may come out
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\ as nothing or it may come out as something very extreme, no telling at this
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\ point. Part of what I'm doing here is a scientific experiment, because
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\ I want to examine 28's reaction. A human experiment, mind you, with no prior
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\ consent, utterly unethical. Another part depends on said reaction, it may
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\ become a genuine punishment, cruel and unusual, I may hurt and harm her
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\ for real. It's something that I'm not, usually, but there is a tiny voice
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\ in my head telling me I want to harm 28, a voice I've never heard before.
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\ I am very annoyed at everything right now and I blame her. She becomes
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\ the focal point of my frustration, so even if it's completely unfair, she'll
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\ have to suffer. Or not, I don't know yet, we'll see.
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I stride into the hospital room.
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"Colonel." -- everyone salutes me, good. I'm feeling authority now, I have
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\ a clear goal in mind and I need everyone to help me achieve it, ironically
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\ by going away for a while I'm afraid. Or better yet, me going away from them.
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> At ease. Agent Bunny, please assess whether 28 can be unhooked for an hour or two.
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"Mam, yes, mam!"
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She gets busy double checking everything. I wait.
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"Affirmative, mam! No immediate risks nor any need for urgent IV."
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> Good, please unhook her. Agent Foxy, with face covered will anyone be able
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> to recognize 28 outside of the room, just passing by? Please reply in text.
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>> Mam! Not really, no, she doesn't have any marks, save for the wound,
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>> so anyone aware of her circumstances may be able to guess, but not much more.
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> Please fix 28 to the bed tightly and get her a strict hood.
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While agents are busy, I turn to Old Man.
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> I'm gonna take 28 away for a private session, it's gonna last some time.
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> I'll leave you in agents' care, will you be alright? Text.
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>> Of course, Colonel. We'll be fine, don't you worry, take all the time you need.
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It's settled then. I take a look at our inventory and pick up handcuffs, putting
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\ them in my pocket. I also take a set of small locks, all identically keyed,
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\ and lock 28's leg cuffs and her collar. She'll need her arms later, but nothing
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\ else. I leave the key in the room. Somewhat risky, I admit. The whole thing
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\ is risky, I don't expect anyone would go along with my plan so I'll just keep it
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\ top secret. Oh, by the way, her phone might be useful, I put it in another pocket.
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I take a look at 28. Arms and legs are cuffed to the frame of the bed, a thick
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\ collar on her neck. Let's check it out. I try to put my index finger inside
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\ the collar, but it doesn't let me. I try my pinky next, and still can't, really.
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\ Oh, this is good, I like it. Of course Bunny wouldn't allow the restraints
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\ to be dangerous, I'll just assume there is no health risk for 28 wearing this
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\ for a couple hours. The collar is also fixed to the bed, she won't be able
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\ to lift her head very much, as I've just checked. Her torso is also fixed
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\ to the bed just under tits and above hips, also tight. On her head is a simple
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\ thick canvas hood like I've asked, no openings in it except one small
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\ breathing hole. It's not laced all the way so it sits a bit baggy,
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\ not following contours of her head and face, which will make recognition
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\ harder. Do I want to add anything?
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...
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I consider writing something on her, but decide against it. Nipple clamps?
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\ No, I don't think so. This is simple, elegant and effective.
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> Outstanding job, agents. Jokes aside, I like this.
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They just salute me back. Both faces indicate hints of proudness. They should be.
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> I will take 28 out. While we are away we are not to be disturbed for anything
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> short of a bona fide emergency. Agents, please spend time here and await our return.
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They salute again. I try to think of anything else I need to do, but there's
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\ nothing. Time to go. Oh, there is this little thing, yes.
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"28, confirm you can hear me." -- I hold my phone near her ear. The hood
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\ should not be that soundproof, but whatever, I mean why not.
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"MAM YES MAM!"
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"You and I will go outside. Exact route is classified, but I'm sure many people
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\ will see us. You may not speak until told otherwise. In fact, try to refrain
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\ from making any sounds, except to indicate emergency. This will be all for now."
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So I pull the stops from the wheels and push her bed. First we'll visit
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\ the canteen. I didn't exactly lie to 28, we'll have a bit of a tour, but not
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\ as extensive as my wording may have implied. I think about what's going on now.
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\ What 28 might be experiencing, or what would other people think. Like imagine
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\ you see a young woman in colonel uniform pushing a hospital bed through
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\ the corridors or a (presumably) huge undergound complex, having on it another
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\ young woman, naked, obviously bound, with a hood on her face and a bandage
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\ over her torso. And you only went out to have a coffee with this Sheila chick
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\ from Deliveries that you maybe fancy a little, but nothing serious, just
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\ a pretty face and a bit of a conversation from time to time.
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...
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Fuck, now I want to meet this Sheila chick too, my imagination will be the death
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\ of me, I tell you. Anyway, actual people pay zero attention to us, just making
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\ way, not acknowledging anything as out of order. Like it's just something
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\ that happens, whatever.
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...
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Should I just flat out fuck 28 in public?
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No.
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This is foreplay anyway, I don't really care whether people will catcall us,
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\ or whistle, or react funny, or nothing. Nothing is fine. What 28 thinks is
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\ of little concern as well, but I may check her pussy just out of interest.
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\ I find a quiet corridor and run a finger between her spread legs. There's
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\ a little shudder but no sound. Well, in this case.
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I circle the finger around upper part of her pussy hoping for her clit to come
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\ out and play. And soon here it is, and play we will, just a little. This is
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\ not very convenient, but not, like, impossible to give it a quick lick. In fact
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\ you know what, while we're at it I can pay a bit of attention to other parts
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\ of what's around. It only takes a minute, but now 28 is thoroughly wet,
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\ her breathing indicates a very aroused state. Now, now, where were we.
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I continue pushing her bed and we soon arrive at the canteen. I can put a tray
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\ on her belly and drive her around composing myself one hell of a lunch. Or
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\ I can do it without the tray, just slopping food right on her skin.
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I don't want to do any of this, I'm not even hungry. Instead I roll her bed over
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\ to the vending machines and take a can of cold instant coffee and we leave.
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\ I have several ideas where this can might end up, but I just open it and start
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\ sipping. Again, none of this matters, my plan has nothing to do with any of this,
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\ it's just a bit of fun before shit gets dark, maybe.
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Now I'll just get us to my room. Your place or mine, huh? Actually, her place
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\ would work better, but it's just so much work to get directions from her,
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\ and also recognition risk gets higher. No, mine will have to do. I just push
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\ the bed, polishing the details of what exactly is going to happen soon.
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\ I shouldn't oversell this to myself, it very well might come to nothing,
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\ again. I just have a hunch, all right? I think I'll have at least some
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\ reaction out of her, and that in turn may provide... Whatever, we'll see.
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Corridor after corridor, looking very similar. It would be easy to get lost here,
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\ but thanks to navigation here we are, finally. I roll the bed into my room,
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\ position it roughly in the center and push the stops in. Each locks with
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\ a satisfying thunk, I approve of this design. I walk to the controls and turn
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\ the heating up. I want the air to be hot, I want us sweaty. I also dim the lights,
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\ we're gonna need an intimate atmosphere. I take the hood off of 28's head, uncuff
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\ her wrists and give her phone to her.
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> I want what's coming to be something that only two of us share. Can you turn
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> the room surveillance off for a while? This is not a question, I want you to do it.
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She blinks, then her face shows her mind working hard. I'm not gonna push her,
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\ I understand it may take a minute. In the meantime I lift the bag off the floor
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\ and go to the toilet, closing the door. I'd open the tap to mask the sound, but
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\ I don't want to waste water, because I'm that nice I guess. Fucking hell.
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\ Whatever, I quietly take the gun out of the bag, take the mag out of the gun
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\ and empty it into the bag. I'll need to give 28 a proper show. I put the mag
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\ and the gun into the bag, close it and get out of the toilet.
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She knows I'm not a colonel here, right? Does she have to follow my orders even
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\ if I'm not? These are variables I can't effectively control, but it may
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\ not matter anyway. I watch her quick tapping for a while, then she nods.
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> Are we alone?
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She nods again.
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> How much time do we have? Do we have an hour?
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She nods yet again. I take her phone and put it on my bed, out of her reach.
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\ I check my TTS. Good, it's on sexy.
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"For now I grant you your free speech back. I want you to express yourself
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\ however you find appropriate, just maybe don't shout too much."
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I take handcuffs out of my pocket and place them on her belly.
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"Handcuff yourself, arms in front."
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She does it without excessive haste, not saying anything yet. I check her wrists.
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\ Cuffs look reasonably tight but not uncomfortable. Good. I have the key ready
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\ and double-lock the cuffs so they stay as they are, then I put the key on my bed
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\ near her phone.
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"I will now slowly undress, you may enjoy. Actually, you may do anything you like
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\ until told otherwise or given specific orders."
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She just stares at me, still silent. Face? Unreadable. Eyes open slightly wider...
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\ or maybe not. I can't tell what's she thinking. She's not smiling, which
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\ is something at least.
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As she can't really lift her head, I stand to the side of her bed, so she can
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\ watch me with her head on the pillow. I don't do a dance or anything, I don't
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\ pose for her, I just slowly undress as promised. If she did enjoy it, she
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\ doesn't make it obvious. Should I do the dark shit now? Soon, but not just yet.
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\ I come close to her and fuck does she still smell good. Am I aroused? Eh,
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\ not all that much, but I want to play just a bit more.
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"Massage your tits, squeeze your nipples. Not painfully."
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She starts to do that.
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"Do you want the hood back on?"
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"Do YOU want it on me?" -- so she didn't forget how to speak after all.
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"Just answer the question. If you were alone what would be your preference?"
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I wait. Wait, I actually don't need to wait, it's not a big deal. Choice
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\ is always hard, but nothing depends on this particular one. I don't have
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\ any gear with me, but it's alright. I put the phone down near her. What was
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\ that Jobs meme, about having ten stiluses with you at all times? Or is it stili?
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\ Why do I always get distracted with the dumbest shit? Well the point is you
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\ don't fuck a girl with a stilus, I hope you like this joke as much as I do.
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So this is still less than ideal, but whatever, I'll manage. I go ahead with
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\ using my tongue and my fingers. I like it, she seems to like it, and I like
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\ that she seems to like it. By the way, did you notice that the two holes
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\ relevant to the situation are located exactly so that your index and middle
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\ fingers quite naturally feel right at home going into both at the same time?
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\ Coincidence or divine intention? Checkmate atheists.
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It didn't take too long to start receiving hints of incoming finish line,
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\ it's easy to tell because my middle finger feels somewhat warmer than before.
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\ Actually that's not a trivial matter. Do I make her come or do I leave her
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\ hanging? Both options have some merits. Eeeeh, fine, I might be an evil person
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\ in a moment, but now I just want her to feel good, all right? I stop playing
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\ around and with some tongue work here she is coming as expected. I pull out
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\ and slowly lick my index finger before her eyes. She didn't make any sounds,
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\ is this significant? I'll decide later. Now I'll just quickly wash my hands
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\ and come back. So, am I ready? Do I really do this?
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...
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I check with the tiny voice. It's even tinier now, but still there. Yeah well
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\ to quote my childhood hero "sometimes reasonable people have to do unreasonable
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\ things". I may hate myself for the rest of my life for this, but part of me
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\ wants to do it anyway. I take a deep breath. No second-guessing, no regrets,
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\ no forgiveness, no countdowns, no backups, now or never here it comes.
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I walk back into the room, pick up the bag from the floor and climb on top of 28.
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\ I sit kneeling, my hips over hers, slightly moving, so that our pussies touch
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\ and rub together gently. It's more of a symbolic action than, like, a sex
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\ position, I just want to express something intimate and personal that I feel
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\ for her, I mean I really feel it, I'm not just acting. However, I also feel
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\ something completely different, as I've tried to analyze before, it's still there.
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So I reach into the bag and take the mag out, and I start to reload it, without
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\ haste. The cartridges click as I insert them, and 28's eyes go real wide.
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\ At least it looks like a surprise. But she's still silent. Next I pull the gun
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\ and insert the mag into it. The bag may wait on the floor now, nothing inside it.
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\ I slowly put the gun on her belly. Her hands are still over her tits, guess
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\ I didn't tell her to stop. She shuffles slightly, reacting to the cool metal
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\ against her skin. I watch her face. There are some emotions, but save for
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\ surprise and uncertainty I can't really identify them. She opens her mouth,
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\ but keeps silent. I take the gun again and rack the slide slowly, then press
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\ on the safety with my thumb, then put the gun back. Nothing new on her face yet.
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\ I take my phone.
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"Hold the gun with both hands. Exercise trigger discipline."
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She hesitates for a second, then her hands start to move. If I were her, I'd think
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\ that most of what's coming next is nothing good, but there are still acceptable
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\ outcomes available. Not for long. Slowly she takes the gun and puts her right
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\ index finger to the side of the trigger guard. She keeps the gun pointed away
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\ from us, as you do.
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"Aim between my eyes."
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What, did you think I'll just give it a blowjob? By the way, she sees my face
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\ as well, I keep it cool. It's not hard, I don't really have any strong emotions
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\ just yet, maybe later. Her face quickly breaks down though, straight to sheer
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\ panic. She looks for an exit, but she's not finding it.
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~~"Mute, what are you doing?"~~
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Not quite a whisper, but she keeps her voice very low. Is it significant? Again,
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\ I'll review the evidence later.
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~~"Mute, don't do this."~~
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I slowly type a four-letter word, but I don't press the speech button yet. This
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\ now is the crux of the happening. What? It's a contemporary art piece, do you
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\ like it? No? That's even better, something about a poignant social commentary.
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\ I crack a little smile. NOT NOW. I need to focus on 28, I want to understand
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\ her reaction. Face still in panic, she's now trembling slightly, the gun
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\ shakes before my eyes.
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~~"don't do this"~~
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Now she is whispering. I guess she didn't find anything else to say. Something
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\ about harming her in other ways I'd imagine, something like: do whatever else,
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\ cut me with a chainsaw, amputate my leg with a nail clipper, but don't make me
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\ do this, something like: this is the one thing I absolutely, abso-fucking-lutely
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\ do not want to do, at least that's my impression. Maybe she decided it won't
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\ be effective, in which case she's right, it won't. Well, if that's all, let's
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\ wrap this up. I start to slowly reach for the button on the screen...
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~~"mayday mayday mayday"~~
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YOU... NINCOMPOOP!
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~~"mayday mayday mayday"~~
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THIS IS UNFAIR
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~~"mayday mayday mayday"~~
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I can't continue now, can I? No, I can't. I look at her with annoyance. Her face
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\ somehow got even worse, she makes an effort whispering forbidden words.
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~~"mayday mayday mayday mayday mayday... may... day..."~~
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Okay, okay, you win. I put the phone down and take the gun from her shaking hands.
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\ She lifts them up and closes her face. I hear a whimper. Yeah, show's over,
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\ I suppose I'll have to start making things right with you now.
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I get off her, get off her bed, walk to my bed and put the gun down. I know
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\ I'll feel incredible guilt later, I anticipate it already, but I can't drown
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\ myself in it just yet, I want to savour the moment. I don't know why, I don't
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\ know how, these are questions for later, I'm just certain I did enjoy this
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\ experience. I also have to care for 28, this mayday of hers may actually
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\ be real. To the rescue then.
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I lift her hands down and remove the handcuffs. She wraps her arms around herself,
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\ burying hands in her armpits. I don't think any words from me would
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\ be appropriate now, I just lay beside her, hugging her tight. Her whole body
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\ is shaking now, I stroke her head gently, I see tears. I start to stroke her body
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\ as well and now she's crying like a little girl, facing away from me. It's okay,
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\ I'll just be near her. I was her torturer a minute ago, now I'm her girlfriend,
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\ here to support her in a very difficult moment, at least I hope she sees me this way.
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This will probably take some time, I can analyze the results. Abundant, but
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\ inconclusive. One thing is clear, she doesn't want to kill me. Why, exactly?
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\ Is it me in particular or people in general? Is it her in particular or maybe
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\ she doesn't want me dead in general? Why does she care? Is it about that song
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\ where I am somehow special? Special in general or special to her? Everything
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\ may hold true at the same time by the way, I may be special, AND special
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\ to her, and her killing me would be the single worst thing to ever happen.
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\ Further experiments would help, but there will be no further experiments,
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\ I will not be able to do anything like this ever again I don't think. Now,
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\ knowing how it affects her, I will never justify putting her through
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\ this shit once more.
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...
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Everything I saw may still be just incredibly good acting.
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...
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However I'm inclined to believe her reaction was genuine. Conclusions? None
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\ at this point, but additional facts for sure. I wanted to hear the hammer drop
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\ though. Would she be able to pull that trigger? Or would she try to eat
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\ the bullet herself? Or would she just freeze in place without moving
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\ her finger? That would provide more intel, but that would also likely
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\ be that much more harmful, so maybe it's good she's guessed her way out.
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\ Guessed? Is it possible she somehow knew my reaction to emergency signals?
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\ I haven't actually received any, but in my mind if you ever come across one
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\ it's categorically imperative you do your everything to answer it and help
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\ however you can. Well, I guess I've just had my first then. Could she know
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\ this is what I think? Well, how the hell does she know other things?
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\ I must admit it's possible.
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A funny image crosses my mind: I clearly see her asking me what was that
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\ all about, and you know what? CLASS-I-FIED, BITCH. Still, I owe her
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\ a bit of an explanation. I pick up the phone and start typing. I'll send it
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\ as text, she'll read it later, she's gonna need some more time to recover.
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> I thought you'd recognize your own gun from the bunker. It fails to fire,
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> I've checked yesterday holding it against my head, twice. I hope you feel
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> punished, I'll continue to punish you for the rest of your suspension
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> as hard as I can manage. By the end I hope you'll be unable to feel guilt
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> for the rest of your life, and I will feel so guilty towards you I'll be
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> unable to kill myself without your permission. By the way, keep in mind that
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> you are responsible for the things you've tamed. You've refused to kill me,
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> this choice comes with consequences. If you need to reactivate
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> the surveillance do it quickly, I want to take you back asap. What happened
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> here is between you and me, but I won't hold it against you to do with it
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> anything you want, I'm not classifying it.
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> You've cheated. I'll punish you without a safe word and without your consent.
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> I remember what you've said, but I don't hold it valid. You told me
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> to punish you however I see fit, but it is my opinion you only said this
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> because you didn't think I'm capable of the things I will do to you.
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> I don't care that it's illegal, unethical and immoral, I'm making an exception
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> just for you. I accept all possible consequences, I don't have a bright outlook
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> and I'm not looking for one.
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> In particular, don't you dare to pull a mayday on me again. You will relinquish
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> your free will to me for the next week, and we'll see where it gets us.
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> When bored I suggest reflecting.
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Anything else? Nothing comes knocking. 28 is still sobbing, but looks functional.
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\ I get off the bed, walk to her phone and place it near her face. I hope I made
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\ myself clear, now I'll just put my colonel uniform back on and wait until
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\ we can get moving. I'm not cuffing her and fuck the hood, I'll just cover her
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\ with my blanket. Oh, you know what?
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> You smell nice.
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I mean, she just does, all right? I walk to the controls and turn heating off,
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\ then walk to my bed and take the gun again. I pull the mag out, rack the slide
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\ and insert the cartridge back into the mag, then holding the gun in my right arm
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\ I turn around, raise it sharply, aim at the controls and pull the trigger.
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\ Hammertime, motherfuckers. Ooooh, this felt like a closure, this-- this is
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\ the satisfaction I needed. A little squeeze and a quiet click, simple things
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\ that bring joy. Right, moving on. I insert the mag back in, then throw the gun
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\ back into the bag and finally kick the bag under the bed. I put the handcuffs
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\ and the key into my pocket and pull the blanket off the bed and spread it
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\ over 28. She's busy with the phone, silent, her face is better, but she's
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\ still very much not okay. I am the reason for this and for now I just accept it.
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\ You shouldn't have given me the uniform and the squad to command, agent Mistress,
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\ it made me feel like a real colonel on a combat mission. We have a war on
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\ your hubris going on and war doesn't tolerate kindness, war kills kind people.
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\ I don't mind to die, but the mission comes first.
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~~"you don't need to wait for me, I can finish later"~~
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> Do you want the hood now?
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~~"I don't have free will, I'm unable to want"~~
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Oh, that's right. She doesn't want the hood then, I put it under
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\ the blanket and pull the top end over her head.
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